Okay, I haven't been here since July, I've had a bit of wine... (Pinot) So, it's time to let it rip. Now (sips again) beforehand, I have to make a disclaimer. **IF YOU THINK THIS IS ABOUT YOU, I'll pay to get your head examined.**
I truly enjoy writing about these subjects. Though I am inspired by my life, as well as the ones around me, some people are so up their own ass, they think this shit is about them. If I don't directly introduce you to a character, Storm isn't raining about you.
Well, now that we've got that out of the way. I have something I've wanted to write about for quite some time, and have simply not landed myself in front of my computer with the proper mindset to handle this subject. Looks at my assistant (yes, the wine) and nods. It's time...
Learning to let go...This for many of us is never easy, especially if whatever it is we need to let go is something we still want. People handle this in different ways, most hang on to it until it dies completely, then you want to have it stuffed, so you still keep it in its afterlife. Personally, I've struggled with this. I am a perfectionist, and I have these profound ideals, and I am completely hopeless when it comes to believing in the impossible. I like to break barriers. When someone says, ohhh this is impossible, or this or that can't happen. I take great pride in being the one to say something along the lines of *smirk*
"I did that."
Many of think this is some horrible thing, man... get rid of whatever it is you clearly aren't supposed to have and let that good ish come in, whatever it may be. Just do it. Swallow that pride, and just do it. If not, you will find yourself wondering why things aren't going your way more often than you need to. In regards to people and relationships, it's a joint effort. Period! Regardless of the magnitude of the relationship. Once it becomes one-sided. Where one's personal goals are more important than yours or the actually survival of the relationship... it's time to go. It hurts, it sucks, you don't always understand it.
Just say fuck it, and let it go. Chances are that person won't even notice you've decided to move on... that's the part that hurts the most. At least for me it is...
My mom asked me a question today about a grandchild she's wanted for a long time now (she has one, but of course she wants another one, lol) She couldn't have been more wrong about a situation, and she couldn't have asked at a worst time. Kept it simple, set the record straight. Sucked it up and went on to the next thing.
What else, oh, you never want to feel like you wasted a lot of time, because its not something you can get back.... the experience is well worth it, if you learn from it and have it handy for the next time something starts to resemble the crap you've managed to escape.
**NEWSFLASH: As much as you want to think you can be friends with everyone, you just can't. I've tried, God knows I've tried, hard. It doesn't work with some people, I'm not going into a ton of detail because that's another blog entry in itself, and I want this one to remain kinda short. It's not worth the emotional stress that comes from you trying to figure out and process everything.
And to those of you who believe you can be friends with anyone, you are full of shit, we all don't think like you, and you're not the smartest thing to grace planet earth. Respect it and carry on.
** I am welcoming views and comments on this, post on the blog, or email me, please**
What else is going on right now? hmm... Yes! When you decide that you are ready to do something i.e: love, make sure you are still willing to wait for the right one. Some of us decide we want to do something and end up jumping into whatever with a whoever, that normally doesn't work out... so be careful. Storm is here if you need her, but I'm saying, some things can be avoided. :)
My future is looking quite bright... I'm opening up a bit more. Umm... I've been out of the "love loop" for a long time. So, the whole getting back on the horse is just tedious and bothersome for me, which means I am not rushing anything, with anyone...
Be kind to others in what you do, karma is very real.... nobody signs up to get bit in the ass...
I loved you then, I love you now, and I'll still love you tomorrow. Thanks for reading!!